It\u00ef\u00bf\u00bds my first day back at a keyboard after returning from the mountains a week and a half ago. It\u00ef\u00bf\u00bds my first day thinking anything at all in the form of the typewritten word. I\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdve been afraid to begin writing. he old demon of self-doubt, I suspect. I\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdm ready, I think, to begin the process. So here I am, typing. George Bush is doing his little puppet dance in the background. After all, it\u00ef\u00bf\u00bds September 12th. Time to begin new things. Celebrate life. Celebrate freedom. Celebrate corporate rule. So I write. I\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdm faced with all these new developments. I\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdm procrastinating in the resume department. I need to find a job. I haven\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdt even drafted the ol\u00ef\u00bf\u00bd resume yet. I haven\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdt actually created one since 1993. So I have much to add to it.<\/p>\n
I had apocalyptic dreams last night. Bombs had begun falling on San Luis Obispo. I knew that they weren\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdt warheads. I think I knew that because my flesh was peeling from my body in fat, translucent curls. But it was frightening nonetheless so I tore myself up from the clutches of the dream, mumbled a few nonsensical syllables and dropped back into a dream about colored pencils. Perhaps that came about after watching two documentaries in a row last night about the events of last year. I caught the HBO doc, \u00ef\u00bf\u00bdIn Memoriam\u00ef\u00bf\u00bd and the TLC doc, \u00ef\u00bf\u00bdAnatomy of the Collapse.\u00ef\u00bf\u00bd Kind of o.d.-ing on the 9-11 collections. I have no television, so the only real coverage I saw of the event was last year when it actually happened. After they were over I had to shake off a clingy depression, so I fired up the turntables for an hour or so.<\/p>\n
Anyway, that was that. I\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdm thinking hard about two major things right now. Just two? I want to catalogue the new script ideas and get some thoughts arranged on just what I want to start writing. The other, of course, is that damned resume. It\u00ef\u00bf\u00bds not that the resume itself is hard, it\u00ef\u00bf\u00bds the implication behind it that is hard. I hate trying to sell myself. Maybe that\u00ef\u00bf\u00bds because as a professional resume, it\u00ef\u00bf\u00bds lacking something. Hmm\u00ef\u00bf\u00bdwhat could that be. A job history? I dunno. But maybe the fear comes from the uncertainty of the future.<\/p>\n
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